Updated: Oct 8, 2018
The Desire to Write: By A.R Gatlin
My name is Alfee R. Gatlin, I’ve been incarcerated the last seventeen years, I was arrested in august 2001 and sentenced to thirty years mandatory. I arrived in prison in 2003 at Calhoun corrections. I was like every other inmate, completely rebellious towards authority from the state and I went to confinement a lot for several different infractions but mainly for disrespecting the officials. Coming to prison with a thirty-year sentence will have any man’s brain cloudy, I was extremely frustrated with the system, when I should have been frustrated with myself. That’ how the human mind works: We always throw the blame of our actions at the other people.
During my first four years in prison I’ve been to confinement seven times, during those times I must have written everybody that I know. The sad thing about that, only a few would respond and that brought on more frustration. I decided to stop writing, I felt as though the people on the streets owed me something but in reality, nobody owed me anything. Once again, that’s the human mind, the negative thought process. After several months of not writing people on the outside, the desire came back to me to write again. I received the same results… no responses, I started feeling alone. My family loves me, they show full support, but they don’t enjoy writing, I truly felt abandon…
One night about 11:30pm I was back in confinement and I decided to pray. Not knowing what to pray for or what about but I asked God “why aren’t my family and friends responding to my letters? Can’t they see that I’m trying to reach out to them? At this stage in my life I wasn’t too big on praying but I did.
I didn’t believe much but one night something touched me while I laid in my bunk, in my prayers I totally forgave my family and friends for not responding to my letters. I also asked God to give me the strength to start back writing again. I didn’t want to write if they weren’t going to write back, I wanted to be hard. At this particular time, I didn’t have a roommate, so I had nobody to talk to, no one responding to my letters either. Three or four days after I prayed, I prayed again but this time I prayed for me. I asked God to forgive me for all my sins, to remove the stubbornness from my heart so I could write my family again. Several days later, I was laying down and a vision came to me, God did not just give me the strength to write my family but the desire to write a book! God knew exactly what I needed, he gave me the talent to write. He knew I wanted to write so he put that vision in front of me. I just had to ask (that was in 2007). Since then, I’ve had several more visions too and completed 4 books. I never knew that I had the talent to write a book, but God did. Once he showed it to me, the desire came into my heart naturally. It became a goal to accomplish, I felt short on other goals and dreams, mainly because I didn’t believe.
Once you believe in the lord, you will be able to accomplish anything you set your mind to. Don’t allow anybody to tell you “you can’t” no -matter what your dreams are, if it’s drawing, singing, dancing, acting, playing sports, becoming a lawyer or even a writer, don’t let anybody tell you that you can’t do it. All you have to do is trust in God and ask him for the strength and he will provide it with that you could shoot for the stars.
My goal is to get my book published one day, I have more time to do here in prison, by the time I get released I hope to have at least one of my books published and fully established myself with God. I am still a work in progress. I hope and pray that my short story touches someone and inspires them to work hard to try and accomplish their dreams. Remember, no matter what you are trying to achieve in your life, you must put God first. God has a path for all of us.
My books are:
Raised in a Dangerous Game
Goldie the Notorious Pimp
Platinum- The Pimp’s Daughter
The Superior Serial Killer
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God bless you